Beautiful Liar

Blinded to the truth

Eclipsed behind a disguise

Angelic persona

Utilize to hide

Transform to devil

Ignorant of its evil

Felicity taken away

Umbrage building to a crescendo

Lulling into false security

Loathe an existence

Irrational behavior

Autonomous narcissistic

Reflect deceptive beauty of

          Beautiful Liar

Make Believe

It’s getting harder

 to keep my feelings hidden

Outside I smile, 

inside I’m dying, Pretend

Deaf tears I cry, 

each intake of breath 

I’m wishing

were my last, Pretend

Why is it that I’ve fallen

 and I look for rest to siege

Me in its arms, Pretend

I wear a mask no

 one can penetrate

My eyes are soulless, Pretend

To match a spirit held in an

Arroyo deserted 

and forgotten, Pretend

I hear words spoken 

saying never give in

Yet there said 

in a whisper, Pretend 

Fool to think my 

feelings are put first

A lie I’m told to keep

 me satisfied, Pretend

Stand strong 

stand alone, Pretend

On a ledge I totter, 

the fall forever

To eternity, Pretend

Hoodwink

who are you to have the world so fooled

buying into your lies

damn the disguise

you wear it so well a real cool veil

no one even bothers to stop

and take a closer look

your smile so serene

in your hand you bleed the blood

of those you've

fooled, tricked, bamboozled

who are you to have the world so fooled

the universe rocks with your deception

the words you speak are super sleek and slimy

and damn grimy and

yet you get away with

stepping on feelings wrapping your lies

so skillful in honey

the image portrayed have those believing you're a god

when you're a fraud

the truth will be revealed and you'll be left

standing in an empty field surrounded

by those you hurt ready to give back justice

well deserved

Decisions

Doughty choices not committal to the grave

Epoch of emotions ageless as time

Contagion of despair touches us all

Idiom of words not making sense

Sublime affirmation trusting in paroxysm of untruths

Immersed in making sense out of nothing

Opulent opinion of one’s self   

Nonentity thoughts divulge ignorance

Surrealistic end to painful

DECISIONS

Running Away To Something

Tears falling I don’t even know why

All the pain you caused me and here

I sit crying because of something lost

Broken heart will heal

Soul comforted

Spirit rejoined

In all that’s transpired I still question why

If your love for me was real than why

Am I soaked in tears?

Washing my body clean of

Any memories of you

If it was that easy

What’s going to erased them from

My mind

Running away, running to something

Believing there is a future where

I can survive without you

Maybe the memories will never

Be completely exorcised 

The Devil You Say?

I've heard tell that the devil is real
He walks the earth feeding
on the suffering and despair
The evil he unleashes
tragedy and sickness are
His trademark
I've heard ask” have you
seen this evil one?”
Death is his friend and he loves sin
I sit and look across at you
thinking of all that you do
I hate you, I despise you, and I curse your birth
You've given me nothing but heartache
if I had the courage to walk out
that door
Begin something new without you
love myself more
not be your doormat and stepping stone
I've cried so many tears
enough to fill the Pacific Ocean
My feelings you don’t care about
you've demonstrated your
lack of feelings, with your lack of action
Hurt I guess you can say I am
disillusioned to your sins
Evil reborn in you
Devil walks among us
and he sits across from
ME

This Is My Rage and I'm Not Insane

I’m so tired of the shit I have to put up with

 Deal with struggle through

Kiss my ass

Bullshit at every turn my shoes are so fucked up

All the shit I walk through

I mad not angry that’s much to polite

Fuck this damn life

Greedy motherfukus thinking only of themselves

Selfish sons of bitches it’s them and fucks

Everyone else

Who the hell do they think they are?

A god or some idol I’m suppose

To bow down to and worship

I think they must have smoked too much

Fuckin crack

Every dog has his day and a good dog has two

A stupid dog has none

Stupid bitch your life is done

Rot away alone and unforgiven

You hurt the ones you love

And then turn around and expect

To be loved in return

You’re a joke a court jester

This is my rage and I’m not insane

For feeling this way

Cut you, you don’t bleed red

You bleed green ‘cause you’re

A coward and it seems only in your eyes

Do you have power?

Watch out David was a small man

But he killed Goliath