God Can You Hear Me

 

I'm tired I need peace of mind

My soul is weary, and my spirit broken

My knees are raw from all the kneeling

I've lost my voice from all the crying

God, can you hear me I'm afraid of the unknown

Today I hunger for spiritual food

I can't picture tomorrow being all sunshine

Yesterday I lived in sorrow

I'm broken and I don't know how

To be fixed

God, can you hear me

Please tell me what I should do

The road is lonely, and I'm confused

I keep running in the wrong direction

And the voices that keep

On telling me to be strong

I ignore

I have no home

And my children I morn for

My heart is empty except

For the despair that's taken up

Dwelling in its core

God, can you hear me

My steps are slow and uneven

I'm the walking dead

I've given everything that I am

Only to receive ashes in return

Drowning in the bottom

Of a bottle hoping to find answers

Drinking my problems away

Just for a moment

God, can you hear me

I don't think I can with stand

Much more

I don't think I can continue

In this pain

Life was never meant

To be this hard

This complicated

God, can you hear me

Can you hear

Me

Can you hear

Me now…

 

 

Gaslighting

I build you up

Only to break you down

Give you hope

Then stomp on it

Into the ground

Make you think

The world is square

When it's round

Question if what

I'm telling you

Is profound

Are you crazy?

Or just being Gaslight

I can convince you

I'm right

When I'm wrong

Have you hearing

Voices

It's only a song

In your mind

Seeing things that

Aren't really there

Are you sane?

Or has insanity crept in

This is only partial

To what comes next

Psychological warfare

Emotional blackmail

Mental manipulation

Will seal the deal

And you'll never

Even imagine

What's real or

A fantasy

When I'm through

With gaslighting

 

Reminiscence

 

Rewind the clock back to

Yesteryears

When life was simple

And love was our guide

Caught up in a fantasy

Shutting out reality

Creating our own truth

Never taking the time to examine

True motives

Questioning a journey

Two people together

Should be as one

Selfishness, disrespect

Distrust, hate, indifference

Grew into a cycle of abuse

Toxic love

Poison

Cherished words turned

Into curses

And the dream became

A nightmare

Thought I’d remain a victim

That was a lie

Behind the tears and the shame

I found my voice

Now I stand strong

I am strong and no more

Reminiscing

 

Regret 835

 

I think about the day we met

Didn’t think I’d be sitting here

Visiting regrets

Happy memories

The laughter

When did it turn into a disaster?

Shadows cast an eerie outline

To a life that was supposed to shine

Thought you’d catch me if I fall

Never imagine you would

Let me hit the ground

 

 

Slap Heard Around the World

 

Is it me or has the world tilted?

Another drama for the richer

While the homeless sleep unsheltered

Innocent children go unnurtured

Sick and the dying loosing battles

Countries fighting for survival

Everyone weighing in on trivial matters

What about the world that’s in tatters?

Are we just drifting and not caring about what shatters?

Is there going to be a tomorrow after

For our future generations that follows

Its madness how our views are so easily shifted

A man stands up to defend the honor of his queen

So quickly is he seen as the villain

Now the world is held captivated

While I’m hoping we’ll wake up

Put the focus on where it belongs and it’s not

The slap heard around the world

 

 

Push

He strolls in

Big, resilient, and tall

Hair slayed looking trendy

cigarillo dangling

Between dazzling teeth

A diamond stud in one front tooth

That cost a fortune

The rest of his grill set in gold

With the smell of money

Scanning the area

He Sat down

Orders a drink throwing

It back

Spotted his prey

As she commands the room

Long and strong

slippery with sweat of desperation

Her legs caressing its coldness

Liquefied flesh molding

Body contouring with every emotion

Making money on her mind as her

Body turns into every man’s desire

setting him on fire

Flames leaping from his eyes

Entrance he can’t move

Wishing he is deep inside

Watching as her hands’ slides

Resting on her inner thighs

Immobile as she licks her red lips

Eyes painted no signs of ageing

Skin glistening glowing

Hair is flowing dancing

Around her head making a halo

As she throws it back

Her long neck agile

With every motion

Nothing conceals in what she’s wearing

Breast big and heavy

heaving with

Every intake of breathing

Inhale exhale

Eye’s meeting

luring him in

hers Deep big golden brown

his are the color of night

that has its own tale

All innocence gone

Staring into his soul

Knowing with each whirl

around and around

She has him just where she wants him

He’s throwing money

Make it rain baby she’s cooing

Lips parted

Eyes starring

She knows he’s hers

Now for the finally

Now for the finally

Now for the finally

push

 

 

 

 

Wasted

 

Wasted years and wasted tears

A lifetime of love and no vows

The promises forfeited

All verbal and no action

Lazing the day, a way

Blowing smoke through violent lips

Sitting staring at the same spot on the wall

Wishing you can take just one more hit

Master to all master to none

Criticize that’s your only input

Can’t lift me up you can lift that blunt

Nagging and bitching is your verse

Not once did I speak an unkind word to your face

You never investigated my soul and see the hurt

Time wasted…