Running Away To Something

Tears falling I don’t even know why

All the pain you caused me and here

I sit crying because of something lost

Broken heart will heal

Soul comforted

Spirit rejoined

In all that’s transpired I still question why

If your love for me was real than why

Am I soaked in tears?

Washing my body clean of

Any memories of you

If it was that easy

What’s going to erased them from

My mind

Running away, running to something

Believing there is a future where

I can survive without you

Maybe the memories will never

Be completely exorcised 

The Devil You Say?

I've heard tell that the devil is real
He walks the earth feeding
on the suffering and despair
The evil he unleashes
tragedy and sickness are
His trademark
I've heard ask” have you
seen this evil one?”
Death is his friend and he loves sin
I sit and look across at you
thinking of all that you do
I hate you, I despise you, and I curse your birth
You've given me nothing but heartache
if I had the courage to walk out
that door
Begin something new without you
love myself more
not be your doormat and stepping stone
I've cried so many tears
enough to fill the Pacific Ocean
My feelings you don’t care about
you've demonstrated your
lack of feelings, with your lack of action
Hurt I guess you can say I am
disillusioned to your sins
Evil reborn in you
Devil walks among us
and he sits across from
ME

This Is My Rage and I'm Not Insane

I’m so tired of the shit I have to put up with

 Deal with struggle through

Kiss my ass

Bullshit at every turn my shoes are so fucked up

All the shit I walk through

I mad not angry that’s much to polite

Fuck this damn life

Greedy motherfukus thinking only of themselves

Selfish sons of bitches it’s them and fucks

Everyone else

Who the hell do they think they are?

A god or some idol I’m suppose

To bow down to and worship

I think they must have smoked too much

Fuckin crack

Every dog has his day and a good dog has two

A stupid dog has none

Stupid bitch your life is done

Rot away alone and unforgiven

You hurt the ones you love

And then turn around and expect

To be loved in return

You’re a joke a court jester

This is my rage and I’m not insane

For feeling this way

Cut you, you don’t bleed red

You bleed green ‘cause you’re

A coward and it seems only in your eyes

Do you have power?

Watch out David was a small man

But he killed Goliath

Going Through the Motion

Staring at the ceiling, giving names to the
cracks, “I think I’ll call you Jimmy and you Sam maybe you Jack”
Saying all the necessary words
To get you going
“Oh Baby you’re so good, yeah right there, that’s the
way I like it”
My mind going blank as you pump harder
A song starts to play in my head replacing
The vacant space in my mind
I’m humming along, you think I moan
Faster and faster you go
Will this ever end I’m wanting
to know,
“Say my name” you shout
Damn if I know what name you want
me to holler out, ” Daddy, Big Daddy, Mac Daddy, what?”
I just wish you’d hurry up and finish 'cause
My head is spinning
and you cologne is no longer
turning me on
So I play along moan and whimper
with false pleasure
I think I know what I must do
To get you off me
“Baby, I think I hear your car alarm going off”
Yep that did it he was off of me faster
Than Jesse Owens
Going through the motions
*Bet you thought I was going to fake it*

Images

Horrible images running

 through my head

Gun shots sounding off

in the distance

I see a blood moon setting

 Awaiting a sunrise

that will never come

Tears fill the land

Cries ring forth

The wailing so

Horrid, I close my ears

To the sound

Putrid flesh I smell

Hangs in the night air

Moaning and weeping

Shrill voices sing out

To a God gone and forgotten

Blood flows like a river

Souls carried away

In the torrent

Lifeless, ghost of youth

Pass away

Horrid images running through

My head

Save them, save them

The walking dead

Too many images castrate

Them from my mind

I see the spirits of the

Lost and forgotten

Gehenna is their home

Images to bare, my hell

So alone

So alone

Sound of Drums

Mythical rhythm warriors dancing, prancing

calling to ancient gods, the beat gets louder

with each beat of the drums

the night creatures circle in wonder of the sound

they howl to the beat as if its speaking in their tongue

Warriors chant calling to brave hearts

lost in battle their ghost answers in the night wind

The drum beats louder and louder drowning out

their cries

A single ember leaps from the fire pit

taking on a new spirit, it dances to the tune of the

sound of the drums leaving a trail of ash in its wake

Sound of drums beat ageless moaning they weep

sadness pounded out with each beat

Universe so vast mystical, illusive, untouchable

Sound of drums brings them closer reaching out a hand holding

mystery in their palm washing away the tears

they dance to the sound of drums a new spirit of hope is born

Looking For Mr. Jones

Loosing myself to you
Oneness
Opinion of others don't matter
Kindness in abundance
Insecurities met with self assure
Never asking for more than given
Gentle persuasion


Focus on only the good
Odium of emotions you erase
Remembrance of empty days


Materialize to haunt
Rushing into a subconscious mind


Jaded perception
Omniscience wisdom
Nude feelings expose
Explosion of corrosive thoughts
Save from self
        Looking for Mr. Jones