Lap Dance

Nervous looking over his shoulder

Didn’t know what he actually thought

He might see

Still he kept looking

 He walked into the club

Didn’t know what to expect

Every night was different

Sat down wondering why

In the world he was there again

A question he asked himself

Every time

The answer always the same

Lights dimmed music began

To play loud and raunchy

Had the walls vibrating

Color lights started to spin

 As the women

Took to the stage

Sweat begin to appear on his forehead

Great drops rolling down the

Sides of his cheeks

Quickly he wiped it away as

Beautiful bodies paraded in front of him

He took in a deep breath

Still in his mind questioning his presence

In this sinful place

All his life he was told to stay away from

Den of iniquity

She stood in front of him gyrating up and down

Threw one leg over his shoulder so

Close he smelled her scent

He leaned back

She moved in closer

Removed her leg from around his head

And sat down in his lap

Nature began to stir

As she did her dance

Provocative, erotic

Secretly he was a masochist seeking

To find his high

Each night he came

Each night he felt the

Same self loathing

She leaned into him more

He forgot all about

What his mother always told him

Throwing his head back he

Let out a wild animal cry

As he let the music and

The women do to him

Things he’d never imagined

And like all the nights before

 The music would come to a stop

And he would come back to his senses

Looking into the woman eyes

He saw the face of his mother

Threw a few dollars at her

And ran

He ran and

He ran

Hearing the devil laughing in

His head

Feeling sick to his stomach

He let go of his dinner

In the back of an alley

Wiped his mouth on the back of his coat

Sleeve and leaned against the

Cold brick wall

All this for a lap dance

He felt dirty

His soul violated

Head down he continued on

To his home

Put the key in the door

It opened in slow motion

What he saw made him

Stop…….