Wondering

Misery seeps in between the

Coldness of my heart

Feeling the sting of bitterness

Wondering

Sowing loneliness, reaping aching needs

Adrift on the sea of vengeance

Suffering the what ifs

Living with the how comes

Wondering

Crying out in the distance

My voice echoes back

to deaf ears

Wondering

Vision distorted by tears

Clarity fogged in somewhere

Between the sound of thunder

And the howling of the wind

Wondering

Inside a broken vessel

Thrown away to live

A life filled with soft whispers of ghosts

That come to me in

Waken moments of

Wondering

Is this my heaven?

Or is this my hell

When will the sun glow?

Upon my face

Wondering

Darkness, my lover

 Protects me, keeps me safe

Wrapped in its arms

Shelters me from the pain

Wondering