Arsenic Love

He use to love me
Call me his queen
His love became dark, grotesque
I became afraid
Nothing was good enough
Not even how I said his name
In my state of mind I was benumb
I couldn't even feel shame
For what I'd become
Seeing myself through his eyes
It reflected all the lies
He loved me no one else would
To him I was a prisoner held
Captive in his heart
His love was corruptible, corrosive
Contaminating me
Time has no age
Age has time
My heart beat the rhythm of a ghost
It beats the rhythm of the damned
This was his love for me
He took my will
Replaced it with fear
Smothered my self esteem
Killed my self worth
He couldn't touch my soul

Suppress my spirit